Genesis 3:5 For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.
One of the wicked thoughts that I get is similar to what I believe happened in the very first temptation. Eve was told by the serpent that God knew that there was more out there. God didn’t want Eve to have it all according to the serpent. Eve thought it over and went for it only to lose everything until the grace of God stepped in.
I fall for this lie so often. I wonder if God has more He could give me but doesn’t want to. I know that it would be my fault, not His, but I still think of how others seem to have it better than me.
I look at other ministries. I see other men and consider how things seem to be going for them. Then I look at me and wonder. Why isn’t my ministry going better.
I need to learn that the problem here is my thought life and not God. I know God loves me. I know that He has my best in mind. I know that He is at work in me but I listen to my thoughts, the devil’s thoughts and doubt God’s goodness.
Notice that I never believe this in my mind. I just think it in my heart. I know better but I like to think and feel something else. I like to pity myself. I like to think of how others have it better.
I think the big lesson for me is that this thought that I have is exactly how Satan got Eve to do wrong in the very first temptation. I am falling for his oldest trick.
I can get bitter. I can get discouraged over something that is not even true. I am not focusing my thoughts on God but on me. I am not looking to God and loving Him but looking at myself and loving me.
I should have my eyes on Jesus but most often I have my eyes on me. Do you have this problem? Do you listen to this lie? Do you allow Satan to play with your mind like I do?
Time to “watch and pray!” We need to be focused on God and praying to Him. We need to keep one eye open to see the attack coming and recognize it for what it is! It is the devil’s lie. Our Father loves us. He wants the best for us!
God is not holding out on me. He has already done more for me than I deserve. I want to believe Him and look to Him. I want to take my eyes off of me and put them where they should be!